though it may sound depressing, but i don't have much to look forward to in 2010. one of my bestie is leaving sg, don't even know when he'll be back. school is getting tougher, and the fact that 2010 is already here, it only means my exam is approaching. and i don't see my family ties/issues improving in this year.
especially the fact that i'm hitting 21 this year, it just doesn't seem like a very appealing year. when i was a kid, i used to think i'll be damn excited abt being 21. all the liberties.. and that my mum will treat me better.. but as i hit 20 and is approaching 21, i don't see any of that happening.
lately, mel keep saying that i'm very mature. the thing i say.. they're very mature. she's envious of it. but i don't think it's something to be envious about. i'd been mature in thinking since i was a kid. i always had a mind of someone older than my age. for instance, in sec sch, when all the girls go crazy about idols, guys, and they bitch, etc. somehow i view it as something super childish and immature. even when i go crazy about a guy, i kept it low, quite, and sometimes not even my friends know. never had idols cos they seem stupid to be idolised. bitching around with a bunch of girls, giggling away - always thought that's super throw-face. having a mature mind ain't a good thing at all. one should have their mind grow as they age, and their mind should think the way their age should. my too mature mind caused me too much pain.
well.. i'm with jiyang for almost 1.5yrs now. i do hope we'll continue to be steady in this r/s. i don't want too much things to go wrong in this year. i just purely want to work hard for my studies and for my internship and pave a road for my career.
2010.
why are you here so fast?